{"id":2797,"date":"2025-09-06T08:13:55","date_gmt":"2025-09-06T08:13:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/?p=2797"},"modified":"2025-09-06T08:35:34","modified_gmt":"2025-09-06T08:35:34","slug":"dagbok-fra-vodlavik-29072025-kl-0600","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/?p=2797","title":{"rendered":"Dagb\u00f3k fr\u00e1 V\u00f6\u00f0lav\u00edk \u2013 29072025 \u2013 kl. 06:00"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Kl. 6:00<\/em><\/p>\n

Kuldalegt \u00fati og l\u00e1gsk\u00fdja\u00f0. Rigndi \u00ed n\u00f3tt og \u00fea\u00f0 bl\u00e6s a\u00f0 austan. E\u00f0a \u00e9g held \u00fea\u00f0. Mi\u00f0i \u00e9g vi\u00f0 f\u00e1nann sem \u00e9g er n\u00fdb\u00fainn a\u00f0 draga vi\u00f0 h\u00fan. Hann teygir sig \u00fatbreiddur inneftir. Samt er einhvern veginn \u00f3m\u00f6gulegt a\u00f0 segja til um vind\u00e1ttir \u00ed \u00feessum fj\u00f6r\u00f0um og v\u00edkum fyrir austan. Ve\u00f0ri\u00f0 kastast \u00e1 milli fjalla og \u00f3m\u00f6gulegt a\u00f0 segja hva\u00f0a \u00e1tt s\u00e9 r\u00edkjandi \u00ed raun og veru. Hva\u00f0a \u00e1tt s\u00e9 \u00ed h\u00e1loftunum.<\/p>\n

\u00c9g er n\u00fdsestur. Skrapp upp \u00ed fjall me\u00f0 Hnotu um klukkan fimm og gekk upp me\u00f0 \u00e1nni. Lei\u00f0in stiku\u00f0 af Einari Sveinsbj\u00f6rns, ve\u00f0urfr\u00e6\u00f0ingi, \u00ed fyrrasumar. Hann haf\u00f0i veri\u00f0 vikuna \u00e1 undan okkur. Skildi eftir minnisbla\u00f0 \u00fear sem hann lista\u00f0i upp allt sem hann haf\u00f0i gert, vara\u00f0i okkur vi\u00f0 litlu rennsli \u00ed kl\u00f3settinu og \u00f3ska\u00f0i okkur g\u00f3\u00f0s gengis. \u00c9g var byrja\u00f0ur a\u00f0 reita l\u00fap\u00ednu stuttu s\u00ed\u00f0ar. \u00c6tla\u00f0i a\u00f0 vera jafn duglegur og Einar.<\/p>\n

\u00c9g kalla\u00f0i \u00e1 Hnotu \u00e1\u00f0an. \u00c9g var annars hugar og nafni\u00f0 sem \u00e9g heyr\u00f0i mig hr\u00f3pa var ekki Hnota heldur \u201eP\u00e9tur\u201c!<\/p>\n

M\u00e9r fannst \u00fea\u00f0 fyndi\u00f0 og hl\u00f3 upph\u00e1tt.<\/p>\n

…<\/p>\n

\u00c9g er enn me\u00f0 hugann vi\u00f0 sumt af \u00fev\u00ed sem \u00e9g skrifa\u00f0i g\u00e6rkv\u00f6ldi enda skrifa\u00f0i \u00e9g fram yfir mi\u00f0n\u00e6tti og \u00e9g er meira en h\u00e1lfna\u00f0ur me\u00f0 minnisb\u00f3kina. Hef skrifa\u00f0 meira \u00e1 fj\u00f3rum d\u00f6gum en \u00e9g hef gert s\u00ed\u00f0ustu fj\u00f3ra\/fimm m\u00e1nu\u00f0i. Mig langar til a\u00f0 segja a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e9 feginn \u00fev\u00ed m\u00e9r hefur fundist upp \u00e1 s\u00ed\u00f0kasti\u00f0 eins og \u00e9g hafi vo\u00f0alega l\u00edti\u00f0 a\u00f0 segja. Sta\u00f0reyndin er samt s\u00fa a\u00f0 m\u00e9r er eiginlega alveg sama og tel mig vita n\u00faor\u00f0i\u00f0 a\u00f0 hverfi \u00fe\u00f6rfin til a\u00f0 skrifa \u00fe\u00e1 er ekkert vi\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 gera. \u00de\u00e1 geri \u00e9g bara eitthva\u00f0 anna\u00f0. \u00c6fi fyrir mara\u00feon e\u00f0a eitthva\u00f0 \u00fev\u00eduml\u00edkt.<\/p>\n

\u00c9g veit a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 er mj\u00f6g \u00f3\u00feroska\u00f0 a\u00f0 tala svona, k\u00e6ra dagb\u00f3k, en sem betur fer hef \u00e9g \u00feroskast a\u00f0eins. E\u00f0a \u00e6\u00f0ruleysi\u00f0 hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 benda til \u00feess. Tj\u00e1ningar\u00fe\u00f6rfin, h\u00fan kemur og fer.<\/p>\n

En \u00fea\u00f0 koma engin lj\u00f3\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 er sta\u00f0reynd. Hef ekki ort lj\u00f3\u00f0 \u00ed marga m\u00e1nu\u00f0i. \u00deessi dagb\u00f3k er \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e6rlegasta sem \u00e9g hef skrifa\u00f0 lengi. Ekki mj\u00f6g falleg \u201etextager\u00f0\u201c kannski, svo \u00e9g beiti fagm\u00e1li, en \u00feetta kemur \u00fe\u00f3 fr\u00e1 hjartanu.<\/p>\n

…<\/p>\n

\u201eHvernig viltu l\u00e1ta titla \u00feig,\u201c spur\u00f0i pr\u00f3d\u00fasentinn \u00ed Kiljunni \u00ed vor.<\/p>\n

\u201e\u00c9g veit \u00fea\u00f0 ekki,\u201c sag\u00f0i \u00e9g. Mig langa\u00f0i til a\u00f0 vera fyndinn og bi\u00f0ja hana um a\u00f0 kalla mig \u201eskrifstofumann \u00e1 Rey\u00f0arfir\u00f0i\u201c en sleppti \u00fev\u00ed \u00e1 s\u00ed\u00f0ustu stundu.<\/p>\n

\u201eViltu a\u00f0 \u00e9g titli \u00feig sem lj\u00f3\u00f0sk\u00e1ld?\u201c<\/p>\n

\u201eJ\u00e1, \u00e6tli \u00fea\u00f0 ekki bara.\u201c<\/p>\n

\u201eErtu b\u00fainn a\u00f0 gefa \u00fat margar lj\u00f3\u00f0ab\u00e6kur?\u201c<\/p>\n

\u201eTv\u00e6r,\u201c sag\u00f0i \u00e9g, \u201eog m\u00e9r var bo\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00ed \u00fe\u00e1ttinn til a\u00f0 tala um \u00fe\u00e6r.\u201c<\/p>\n

\u201e\u00d3kei \u00fe\u00e1,\u201c sag\u00f0i h\u00fan en m\u00e9r fannst h\u00fan h\u00e1lf efins. Sem var sennilega bara \u00e9g a\u00f0 vera \u00e9g. Fullur af komplexum. Skr\u00fdti\u00f0 spjall, hugsa\u00f0i \u00e9g samt. Hvers vegna \u00e6tti \u00e9g a\u00f0 vera kalla\u00f0ur eitthva\u00f0 anna\u00f0 en lj\u00f3\u00f0sk\u00e1ld \u00feegar \u00e9g m\u00e6ti vi\u00f0tal \u00ed Kiljuna til a\u00f0 tala um lj\u00f3\u00f0ab\u00e6kur sem \u00e9g skrifa\u00f0i og vi\u00f0 hj\u00f3nin g\u00e1fum \u00fat?<\/p>\n

\u00c9g \u00feurfti a\u00f0 HAM-a mig \u00e1\u00f0ur en upptakan h\u00f3fst. Tala\u00f0i sj\u00e1lfan mig til:<\/p>\n

\u201e\u00de\u00fa ert lj\u00f3\u00f0sk\u00e1ld. \u00de\u00fa ert lj\u00f3\u00f0sk\u00e1ld. \u00de\u00fa ert lj\u00f3\u00f0sk\u00e1ld. \u00de\u00fa ert tungl \u00ed n\u00e6rbuxum. \u00de\u00fa ert lj\u00f3\u00f0sk\u00e1ld\u201c<\/p>\n

\u201eErtu tilb\u00fainn?\u201c spur\u00f0i \u00fe\u00e1ttastj\u00f3rnandinn Egill.<\/p>\n

\u00c9g kinka\u00f0i kolli. Haf\u00f0i umbreytt m\u00e9r \u00ed lj\u00f3\u00f0sk\u00e1ld me\u00f0 hugr\u00e6nni atferlisme\u00f0fer\u00f0.<\/p>\n

\u201eHinga\u00f0 er kominn J\u00f3n Kn\u00fatur \u00c1smundsson, alla lei\u00f0 a\u00f0 austan. Hann segist vera lj\u00f3\u00f0sk\u00e1ld og …,\u201c heyr\u00f0ist m\u00e9r hann segja.\u00a0<\/p>\n

…<\/p>\n

En ma\u00f0ur er bara \u00fea\u00f0 sem ma\u00f0ur gerir, eins og Purrkur sag\u00f0i. Og n\u00fana yrki \u00e9g ekki. Hef ekki ort \u00ed marga m\u00e1nu\u00f0i og hef enga l\u00f6ngun til a\u00f0 skrifa einhverjar svona settlegar lj\u00f3\u00f0l\u00ednur. \u00c9g vil bara kasta upp. \u00c6la. Engin miskunn. S\u00fdndu f\u00f3lki hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa ert \u00f3ge\u00f0slega vain og fullur af komplexum. \u00dat me\u00f0 \u00feetta! \u00dat me\u00f0 \u00feetta allt saman! \u00dat! \u00dat! \u00dat! \u00dea\u00f0 er eina lei\u00f0in. Amor fati! \u00c1fram me\u00f0 \u00feig!<\/em><\/p>\n

Og n\u00fana hugsa \u00e9g um leikaraskap. M\u00e9r l\u00ed\u00f0ur ekki kj\u00e1nalega \u00fe\u00f3tt einhver kalli mig sk\u00e1ld. \u00dea\u00f0 er stundum gert \u00ed alv\u00f6ru en oftar \u00ed dj\u00f3ki. \u201eOg hva\u00f0 segir sk\u00e1ldi\u00f0 svo gott \u00ed dag? Einhverjar r\u00edmur a\u00f0 f\u00e6\u00f0ast?\u201c Hohoho.<\/em>
I don’t give a fuck, eins og sagt er, en \u00e9g kynni mig ekki sem sk\u00e1ld nema \u00e9g standi fyrir framan h\u00f3p f\u00f3lki og s\u00e9 um \u00fea\u00f0 bil a\u00f0 fara lesa lj\u00f3\u00f0 sem eru sannarlega m\u00edn. Lag\u00f0i vinnu \u00ed \u00feau. B\u00f3kstaflega svitna\u00f0i og f\u00e9kk ni\u00f0urgang vi\u00f0 skrifin og endurskrifin. \u00c6r\u00f0ist af kv\u00ed\u00f0a, af yfirgripsmikilli vantr\u00fa \u00e1 sj\u00e1lfum m\u00e9r. Hver \u00ed andskotanum \u00feykistu vera? Hva\u00f0a helv\u00edtis erindi \u00e1tt \u00fe\u00fa upp \u00e1 dekk?! Mi\u00f0aldra karl utan af landi? Hverjum er ekki sama um \u00feig og \u00fe\u00edna reynslu? \u00deinn t\u00edmi er li\u00f0inn! \u00d6llum er sama! F\u00f6kka\u00f0u \u00fe\u00e9r! Far\u00f0u aftur \u00ed sj\u00f3nvarpshellinn \u00feinn, drullusokkurinn \u00feinn! E\u00f0a \u00ed Dressmann! Og drullastu inn \u00ed kj\u00f6rklefann, l\u00e6stu a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r, hentu lyklinum og settu x-i\u00f0 vi\u00f0 M-i\u00f0 eins og \u00fei\u00f0 geri\u00f0 allir! F\u00f6kk, f\u00f6kk, f\u00f6kk! \u00cd dag viljum vi\u00f0 lesa lj\u00f3\u00f0ab\u00e6kur eftir fl\u00f3ttaf\u00f3lk, transf\u00f3lk, homma og lesb\u00edur! Og hora\u00f0 f\u00f3lk \u00far hundra\u00f0 og einum! \u00c1hugavert f\u00f3lk! Og \u00fe\u00fa ert ekki \u00e1hugaver\u00f0ur! Sn\u00e1fa\u00f0u heim til \u00fe\u00edn \u00ed tv\u00f6hundru\u00f0 og tuttugu fermetra einb\u00fdlish\u00fasi\u00f0 \u00feitt!<\/em><\/p>\n

A\u00f0 komast s\u00e6milega heill \u00ed gegnum svona ni\u00f0urrifstal hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 veita manni \u00e1kve\u00f0in r\u00e9ttindi. Eins og t.d. a\u00f0 kalla sig sk\u00e1ld \u00feegar tilefni\u00f0 b\u00fd\u00f0ur upp \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0.<\/p>\n

…<\/p>\n

En n\u00fana yrki \u00e9g ekki og \u00fea\u00f0 sem fur\u00f0ulegra er a\u00f0 n\u00fana eru engar alvarlegar ni\u00f0urrifshugsanir \u00ed gangi. Nema \u00fe\u00e6r sem tengjast botnlausri vankunn\u00e1ttu \u00ed sk\u00e1lav\u00f6rslu en \u00e9g tek \u00fe\u00e6r n\u00fa bara svona h\u00e6filega alvarlega enda hefur sk\u00e1lavarslan ekkert me\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfsmynd m\u00edna a\u00f0 gera.\u00a0<\/p>\n

Kannski er \u00e9g kominn yfir \u00feetta? Kannski er \u00e9g a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a fullor\u00f0inn?<\/p>\n

O, \u00e6tli \u00fea\u00f0, Johnny boy. Enn dreymir \u00feig um a\u00f0 einhver \u00fatgefandinn hafi samband og gefi \u00feig \u00fat, segi \u00fe\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa s\u00e9rt \u201efalin landsbygg\u00f0arperla\u201c, \u00f3uppg\u00f6tva\u00f0ur \u00fatn\u00e1rah\u00f6fundur, og \u00fe\u00e1 fyrst m\u00e1ttu kalla \u00feig rith\u00f6fund e\u00f0a sk\u00e1ld. Og m\u00f6gulega bara \u201e\u00fatkj\u00e1lkask\u00e1ld\u201c e\u00f0a eitthva\u00f0 \u00e1l\u00edka. \u00deanga\u00f0 til ertu sj\u00e1lfs\u00fatgefinn amat\u00f6r. Skrifstofuma\u00f0ur \u00e1 Rey\u00f0arfir\u00f0i sem skrifar \u00ed fr\u00edstundum. Landsbygg\u00f0in er full af svona k\u00f6llum eins og \u00fe\u00e9r, veistu \u00fea\u00f0 ekki? Menn sem skrifa. Fyrst \u00ed laumi en svo s\u00fdna \u00feeir konunni sinni og h\u00fan var yfir sig hrifinn, ekki satt? \u00dev\u00ed h\u00fan \u00e1tti ekki von \u00e1 \u00feessu fr\u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r. \u00de\u00fa sem virtist ekki hafa \u00e1huga \u00e1 neinu nema \u00e1 Downtown Abbey, indverskri eldamennku og Steely Dan. Gafst \u00fat ind\u00edhlj\u00f3mpl\u00f6tu me\u00f0 vinum \u00fe\u00ednum sem \u00feig haf\u00f0i dreymt um a\u00f0 gera \u00ed \u00ferj\u00e1t\u00edu og fimm \u00e1r. Svo \u00e1takanlegt! Svo aumkunarvert! Svo \u00f6murlegt! En fyrst og fremst bara eitthva\u00f0 svo, eitthva\u00f0 svo, eitthva\u00f0 svo, sorglegt!<\/em><\/p>\n

Nei, elsku dagb\u00f3k, \u00fe\u00fa veist ekki hva\u00f0 minnim\u00e1ttarkennd er fyrr en alm\u00e6tti\u00f0 hefur breytt \u00fe\u00e9r \u00ed h\u00e1lfdr\u00e6ttings listasp\u00edru \u00fat \u00e1 landi. \u00c9g hef sent handritin m\u00edn \u00e1 \u00fatgefendur. \u00deeir sem svara bj\u00f3\u00f0a upp \u00e1 kurteisislega h\u00f6fnun og \u00fe\u00e1 er \u00e9g feginn a\u00f0 vera ekki tuttugu og fimm \u00e1ra. Bara fimmtugur karl, byrja\u00f0ur a\u00f0 gr\u00e1na, t\u00edu k\u00edl\u00f3um of \u00feungur, her\u00f0abrei\u00f0ur og st\u00f3rbein\u00f3ttur, \u00ed sk\u00f3st\u00e6r\u00f0 47-48 e\u00f0a sums\u00e9, ekki beinl\u00ednis sk\u00e1ldlega vaxinn. Hef engu a\u00f0 tapa lengur. Nema kannski k\u00falinu og andlitinu st\u00f6ku sinnum en \u00e9g veit ekki einu sinni hvort \u00e9g kann lengur a\u00f0 skammast m\u00edn almennilega. Ekki til fulls. Ekki \u00feannig a\u00f0 \u00e9g ver\u00f0i eldrau\u00f0ur \u00ed framan og sveittur \u00e1 enninu. \u00dea\u00f0 vantar or\u00f0i\u00f0 alla \u00e1kef\u00f0 \u00ed sk\u00f6mmina m\u00edna. H\u00fan er or\u00f0in svo settleg. Or\u00f0in s\u00edfellt \u00edron\u00edskari \u00ed seinni t\u00ed\u00f0. P\u00f3stm\u00f3dern\u00edsk sk\u00f6mm? \u00c6tli einhver hafi skrifa\u00f0 um hana?<\/p>\n

Er \u00feetta aflei\u00f0ingin af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 afhj\u00fapa sig? Eru \u00feetta launin?<\/p>\n

Frelsi.<\/p>\n

\u00dea\u00f0 skyldi \u00fe\u00f3 ekki vera.<\/p>\n

Segir\u00f0u n\u00fana.<\/p>\n

\u00dea\u00f0 kemur kannski \u00ed lj\u00f3s \u00e1 n\u00e6sta \u00feorrabl\u00f3ti. \u00deessi dagb\u00f3karskrif eru toppefni fyrir ann\u00e1linn.<\/p>\n\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Kl. 6:00 Kuldalegt \u00fati og l\u00e1gsk\u00fdja\u00f0. Rigndi \u00ed n\u00f3tt og \u00fea\u00f0 bl\u00e6s a\u00f0 austan. E\u00f0a \u00e9g held \u00fea\u00f0. Mi\u00f0i \u00e9g vi\u00f0 f\u00e1nann sem \u00e9g er n\u00fdb\u00fainn a\u00f0 draga vi\u00f0 h\u00fan. Hann teygir sig \u00fatbreiddur inneftir. Samt er einhvern veginn \u00f3m\u00f6gulegt a\u00f0 segja til um vind\u00e1ttir \u00ed \u00feessum fj\u00f6r\u00f0um og v\u00edkum fyrir austan. Ve\u00f0ri\u00f0 kastast \u00e1 … →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2797","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2797","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2797"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"http:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2797\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2803,"href":"http:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2797\/revisions\/2803"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2797"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2797"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.jonknutur.is\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2797"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}